Be Careful Of Your Words

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I am not usually a complainer. I have found out the hard way that complaining does no good and it actually is a lack of faith. Even as I write this I know that it will work out and that God has this and that it will be okay.

The thing is I am not perfect. You are not perfect either and as long as we wear these suits of flesh we will be subject to having days when we miss it, we miss the mark.

I was so looking forward to today for the longest time. Why you ask? Today was to be the very last student loan payment I had to make. I have had them automatically taken out of my account and today was to be the last day of a payment that would have been a car payment for most people. Instead we drive a 17 year old car, it looks okay and is in good condition and we are blessed to have it.

I woke up at 2:30 AM and was excited to check my account to make sure that the one last payment was gone and I would have the full amount of my direct deposit. Note to self, do not check you bank account at 2:30 AM when customer service everywhere is closed. So sure enough instead of the amount of my last payment, the department of education took out a whole lot more. I was in shock. I had no idea what was going on. The very next thought I had was, “ Why God? Can’t just one thing go right in my life?”

I slept little as I waited for Customer Service at the Department Of Education to open. I kept telling myself that God has this. I need to sleep and get my rest. But since I couldn’t seem to find a rational reason for what was happening I had a hard time doing that.

Finally I get through and I got a guy who must have been on his first day on the job today. I had him on speaker phone and both my husband and I were in shock. I could not get him to understand what had happened. He said, “Would you like to set up payments?” I said, several times, “I am calling because today was the last day of making payments and you not only took my payment but 3 times my payment.” He just couldn’t understand and I asked for a supervisor. By now my husband and I could not believe that the Dept. of Education, of all places, had people working there who couldn’t understand my problem. I also realized now that it was a Satanic attack. I couldn’t explain it any other way. No one could be that confused.

Finally I get the supervisor who tells me that I have to summit a paper to have the payments stopped and that he can do this for me. I told him that I was told they would be stopped automatically when the loan was paid off and he informed me that I was wrong. He also gave me the bad news that it would be 45 days before I could get the amount over and above my payment removed and refunded. To cheer me up he told me he would send me a letter stating my account to be paid in full. No reason for why this happened but he says it happens often. Great!

I am learning to live one day at a time. Anytime I make plans for the future I often have them not come through and I often have to start over in another direction anyway.

God tells us to live one day at a time like the Israelites who God would only give manna to for one day at a time. God knew that if they had plenty they would not put him first. I would like to think I would never, at this point in time, NOT put God first. But God knows us better then we know ourselves.

I had plans for a real turkey dinner this year with all the trimmings and a Christmas tree because I had to sell mine when everything went to heck in a hand basket financially because of my husbands 3 month hospital stay and all the bills that went with it. Now, it will be slim pickings but I thank Him that at least we have a roof over our head and others do not.

One more thing….We have to be so careful with the words that come out of our mouths. My husband and I pray together daily and each time we say the following, “No weapon formed against us will prosper!” They don’t prosper but they do happen. Today for example, it isn’t prospering but it is going to be hard for the next couple of months.

I said to my husband today, “We need to change our decree. We need to pray that we have no weapons formed against us at all. He agreed.

So I wrote this for a couple of reasons. So many times because I don’t complain people think I live in this wonderful bubble. It’s not true. Most of the time it’s just the opposite. Satan throws darts at me daily. I have learned, as hard as it is, that I must trust in God. Everything will work out. It always does. Today would have been an easy day for me to say, “That’s it, I cannot take anymore, God!” I made the CHOICE to keep on being faithful to Him. He is all I have and nothing bad comes from His hands.

Secondly, we MUST WATCH OUR PRAYERS! We might be using words that are actually cursing our situation and not helping it.

I have learned that what you say is what you get. From now on I will accept no weapon thrown against us! I will watch my words.

You have to be careful and precise with your prayers. For instance don’t just pray for a Christian mate but be specific with God. Write down 5 things your Christian mate needs to have for you to be happy with them. You don’t want just a Christian mate. You want one that prays with you, that knows the Word of God, that puts God first and you second. Then get specific with the physical attributes.

We must be so careful with our words. I do not want weapons formed against us to not prosper, I just don’t want weapons thrown at us from Satan at all.

In His Unconditional Love,
Cathie

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A Christian Cannot Be Cursed

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When we think of Balaam we normally think of the story of Balaam and his donkey. As a matter of fact I often use that talking donkey as an answer to people who believe women should not teach the Word of God. I often say “If God used a donkey to talk to Balaam then he surely can use whomever He chooses to do His talking, even a woman.”

Today I actually want to teach on something that we often miss in Numbers 22. Occasionally, and especially with Halloween coming up at the end of October, I see prayers that people have on Facebook to ask God to deliver them from curses of witches and warlocks. Christians cannot be cursed by any witch or warlock, PERIOD. We often have people who have sat under the wrong teaching. These people, a lot of them taught by ministers in pagan countries, have learned that if they just pay one minister or the other they will give them a magic prayer to have a curse lifted from them. Truthfully, there are a lot of so called ministers in the United States, who being hungry for money, do the same thing. There are many who promise to curse someone for you if you send them money, and if it doesn’t “take” the first time, they then tell you they need more money.

In the time that Numbers 22 occurred there were the same kind of folks. There was fortune tellers, soothsayers, etc, that offered to curse people for money. Balaam, it turns out, was a so called diviner in the Old Testament.

King Balak of Moab was extremely concerned about the Israelites taking over the land. He decided that the thing to do was to hire Balaam to put a curse on the Israelites and that would get rid of them, he believed. I am not, for the sake of writing a long story and losing the reader, going to go into all that is in Numbers 22. I urge you to read it for yourself and by doing that you will see very clearly that NOBODY was able to put a curse on the Israelites.

The city of Alexandria was an occult hub. Egyptian witchcraft, sorcery, wizardry, enchantments, incantations and spells were practiced throughout the city. Balaam had a reputation for being a master sorcerer. Just as we see with so called prophets today, diviners in that day with a great track record made a whole lot of money. King Balak was well aware that hiring Balaam would not be inexpensive but he was so desperate to get rid of the Israelites he was willing to pay whatever it took.

Cutting to the chase Balaam tried THREE times to speak a curse on Israel and could not do it.
Finally he told King Balak, “How can I curse whom God hath not cursed, or how shall I defy, whom the Lord has not died?” Numbers 23:8.

It was absolutely impossible to place a curse on anyone whom God had placed a blessing on.

The Word teaches that when we accepted Christ as our savior, we were grafted into the blessings that Israel received from the Lord. We cannot be cursed by another person. It’s not possible!

God protects His children. I often hear from people who believe that someone has put a curse on their family. This is just one of the places in the bible where we see that Gods’ divine protection cannot be breached by someone operating under, or in cooperation, with the powers of Satan.

Beloved, I encourage you to come out from under the fear that Satan has put on you regarding the possibility of being cursed. If you are in Christ you are blessed of the Lord and as Balaam told Kind Balak, “What God has blessed, no one can curse!”

In His Unconditional Love,
Cathie
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Be Yourself

God made each of us unique. That uniqueness is made to appeal to other people that we are sent to minister to. Your gift may be art, or music, cooking or teaching wisdom but whatever it is use it for spreading God’s love.

Not everyone will like us and those people aren’t our people.

Be yourself and those who get you will stay and those who don’t will leave and that’s okay.

The greatest way to relax in God’s peace is to realize you were created for God’s purposes and not your own. Then and only then does life start to make sense.

In His Unconditional Love

Cathie

He’s Your Ride Or Die God

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“This is what the Lord says: “When seventy years are completed for Babylon, I will come to you and fulfill my good promise to bring you back to this place. 11For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14I will be found by you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back from captivity.b I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile.” Jeremiah 29:10-14
Sometimes our lives make absolutely no sense at all. We have a vision of what we want our lives to look like but then things happen that were not in our script. Things like job lay offs, illnesses, tragedies, misunderstandings and betrayals. People come and people go unexpectedly and suddenly we are in the middle of a life we hadn’t planned on having.

In my life I have learned that these changes, these life-events, force us to face our vulnerabilities. Some of these changes we face in life make us realize that we are not perfect and we can’t do things the way we want to do them anymore.

If you are lucky you will have one or two “ride or die” friends that stick by you during these unexpected life changes. But truthfully those friends are rare. There is an old song with a line in it that goes, “Nobody wants you when you are down and out.” Maybe like me you found that out too.

I had one person I considered a ride or die friend, but then I found out she had told things about my life, and problems, to her whole family. As a matter of fact some of them listened in to our phone conversations. That betrayal was painful, but in the long run it only served to bring me closer to God and left her wondering why I no longer wanted to be her friend.

Like me you may have found that God is the only person who you can go to and be honest with about your feelings that will not betray you and derive pleasure from your downfall.

When, due to my husband’s catastrophic illness, we lost our entire savings our life changed in so many ways. Losing our life savings, due to all the things that come along with health challenges that health insurance just doesn’t cover, caused life changes in our living style. We lived in a beautiful 3,000 square foot home at the time, and then, when that got too expensive we leased a home to buy it because our credit was ruined too. We lost that home due to a breach of contract by the crazy owner, and ended up in a small home that we were thankful to have. At one time it looked as if we would be living in our car.

Instead of offering actual help many people either ignored us, gossiped about us, or offered to pray for us. Yes, the prayer is much needed but showing up and just helping works well too. Many times people in life crisis are too depressed to even get dressed so understand that too!

I could go on and on but I know that many of you reading this could tell your own stories. You are here, but holding on to your faith in God like a titanic survivor holding onto a life raft.

Don’t try to make much sense of it because I have found that do to that is a horrible waster of time and brings in a horrible sense of self-pity. You start thinking about one thing that is wrong and then that cascades into a series of thinking of everything else that went wrong. Before you know it you are in bed, can’t get up or get dressed and horribly depressed.

As a counselor I have heard many tales of people trying to cope with life changes in bizarre ways. My favorite by far is the one of a woman whose marriage fail completely apart a week after her husband had sent her a dozen roses at work for her birthday. After bragging to everyone at work about how blessed she was to have him she found out he was not only involved with another woman but the woman was pregnant with his child. She went to the store and bought a case of Jiffy Peanut Butter and sat in bed with a spoon eating it and throwing the empty jars on the floor. When she finally let her mother into the house her mother saw the trail of empty peanut butter jars and spoons and said, “Honey, you have to snap out of this.” Yes, we both laughed about it. However, if you have ever been anywhere close to devastated in life, you can certainly understand.

Until I really experienced it myself I never knew the desperation behind the statement, “What am I going to do now!”

I want you to know that there is hope, you will make it. You don’t think so, but you will. You will come out the other side of this much a much better person then you were before. You will survive.

The key is to come to terms with the problem. Realize it won’t change but that’s okay you ARE GOING TO MAKE IT. Once you can quit feeling sorry for yourself you simple get up, shower, dress and set about to create a new story of your life. In this story you are the heroine that overcomes. You will put one foot in front of the other and survive and learn so much in doing so. One step at a time and one day at a time. You are fierce and you are strong. You are not going to let whatever broke you destroy you. Against all odds you are going to make a new, beautiful life for yourself. The only ones who don’t make it, truthfully, are the ones who don’t accept the truth and determine to move on.

You are going to have to do that anyway, so why not today! Change your story, write a new script. In this story you, like Scarlett O’Hara in Gone With The Wind, make up your mind that as God is your witness you will never be destroyed like this again! You are a survivor. Life messed with the wrong person!

Pray and ask God to help you. He will, He is just waiting for you to get up first. When he healed the man outside of the waters of Bethesda he said to the man, “Get up. Take your mat and get up!” Then, God worked in his behalf and healed him. He will do the same for you!

In God’s Unconditional Love,
Cathie Miller

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What Are Your Sin Prejudices?

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I notice that a whole lot of Christian have what I call “Sin Prejudices.”

 

I know that I myself have them.

 

You may be wondering what I am talking about. Well, let me explain.

 

Some people judge others even though we are told in the Bible, “Judge not lest you be judged.”

 

We Christians have certain things that might bother one person more then it does the other person.

 

While sitting in a restaurant once, with a dear Christian friend of mine, a woman walked past our table with an extremely short dress on that was also low cut and left very little to the imagination. My friend said to me, “That woman goes to our church. I cannot believe that she dresses like that and calls herself a Christian.” Now I understood where this woman was coming from because there were probably people in the church trying to overcome a porn addiction and this woman’s lack of modesty was only making it harder for them to do so. Church is not the place to dress like that.

 

There are other things too. There are people who are publically involved in sex sin, people who have terrible tempers, people who constantly talk about other people, people into porn, people whose children are holy terrors, people who still dabble in drugs and drink too much alcohol, gossips, people who put pictures of themselves half-dressed on FB and completely ignore the fact that there are scriptures about modesty.

 

If I didn’t hit your favorite Christian prejudice I am sorry, because unfortunately there are a lot of things we Christians judge.

 

I know that the bible tells us we are to judge, using righteous judgment. But honestly, none of us walk on water and a whole lot of these things are better off left in God’s hands.

 

I wrestle with certain prejudices myself. Those times when I say to God, “How can this person or that person really believe that they are saved and still participate in those things?”

 

I have had people bring up things, people and situations in my life, especially the past, and ask how I can consider myself a Christian and allow this or that in my family.

 

I started to pray for God to blind my eyes from some of the things I see and to help me to give them to Him. Frankly, I was really struggling with some of it.

 

One day as I was praying God downloaded the following into my spirit; “Cathie, what if you look at it this way, haven’t I spoken to you in my Word that the most important thing is love and yet it’s hard to love when you judge.” Then He said something that changed my judgment habit. He said, “What if that person is a test that I send to see if you really can love unconditionally? The one thing you judge the harshest, being unable to love folks just like they are, could just be the one thing that breaks my heart about you. You can’t just love the mature Christians; those who really upset you are your test. If you cannot get to the point where you love all, regardless of their weaknesses, then you will never get to where I want you to be. I want you to love everyone just as they are. Unconditionally.

 

It takes surrender, complete surrender to ego, pride and especially self-righteousness. It doesn’t happen just once either. We have to do it over and over and over again.

 

There are ways to handle things. The bible speaks about taking a church member, who continues to bring ridicule on the church, and speaking to them with a few other members of the church. In other words not giving up on them immediately. Then if they continue in rebellion they must leave the church. BUT that is only the job of a pastor and church elders. It’s not my job and probably not yours. We are told to pray about it, take it to the Pastor and then let it go into their hands.

 

I truly believe that we must learn to love unconditionally. Hate never brought one soul to Christ. Not one. Rejection, and many other things that we don’t know about, happen daily in a person’s life. You cannot reject them and expect them to see anything different in us then they see in the worldly that are not saved.

 

In His Unconditional Love,

Cathie

Have You Ever Been Mad At God? I Have

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Do you ever get mad at God? I hate to admit it, and maybe I wouldn’t have admitted it until I read a blog entry by someone who used to write a Christian blog and no longer does. One of the reasons they listed is because they are, or were, mad at God.

 

Now I could get all judgmental and say, “This person is going to hell for being mad at God!” I might say anything or might have said anything prior to God helping me bring my tongue under control.

 

However, instead,  I didn’t judge the person because I understand that sometimes in the life of a dedicated to God person, we are going to get mad at God. If you don’t understand that you will before your walk with God is through.

 

In my case my life went to hell in a hand basket after a terribly unfair situation. I mean a REALLY unfair situation! Everyone I knew realized how unfair it was and how horrible our lives had become because of a mistake by a doctor and a hospital. There was no mistaking that their mistake had ruined our lives. So we took these negligent people to court and as unbelievable as it sounds we lost the case. Because we lost the case the house we were leasing with an option to buy was lost too. Our credit was ruined as a result of medical bills and now we were about to be out of the streets because the landlord refused to deal with us now that it looked like we couldn’t afford the house. He was rude, mean, and demonic and things went bad quickly. We had planned to buy the house and so had no money saved up and had to borrow money to move from high interest loan companies. There have been days we have had nothing but rice to eat but we make those payments on time. I have three payments left of 350.00 a piece and we live on fixed incomes.

 

God promised us that we would have justice. We were treated unfairly and we believed, and still do, that we should have won that lawsuit. But we didn’t.

 

My husband, due to his injury, couldn’t lift our furniture and neither could I. We literally ended up selling at least half of our belongings so that we could have the money to hire a mover. We found another rental home. The rent was higher then where we were but there were only two houses for rent in our small town at the time, and the other one was two stories. It wouldn’t have worked with my husband’s injuries.

 

At first I was so busy selling things, and getting paperwork together to try and get loans that I didn’t have a moment to think. I was on automatic pilot. When we finally got in our new rental it was weeks before we were relaxed enough to think about our situation. I had to sell almost all my dishes and glassware and had two coffee mugs left. One for Chuck and one for me and one day one slipped out of my hand and fell and broke. It was then that I too broke down.

 

I cried for hours. I lifted my hands to God and told Him that I was so mad at Him! “Why did you do this to us God,” I cried. I told him of all the things we had done for others during our life of ministry and the rest of our lives too, since we dedicated them to Him.

 

“I don’t understand you God? You know this isn’t fair and you know that we are flat broke with nothing at our age to show for our lives,” I said angrily. Bottom line is I let God have it.

 

Then as I cried myself out to a whimper and lay down on my bed exhausted, God begin to speak to me of His love for me. He told me that it’s not over and that He would not break His promise to me to have my own home again someday. But then I saw that the real culprit was Satan. God spoke to me that Satan was desperate because we had so many plans for that money that involved God’s people! Satan put people in that jury box that were cold hearted and eager to see us suffer because it was the only way he could stop all the good that was going to come from the money we needed.

 

It made sense. Our case is at the State Supreme Court now and they are hearing it. I don’t know how it will turn out but I don’t care anymore.

 

I began to see that I had put too much emphasis on money and not enough on God. I shouldn’t have thought about it at all and remained dependent on a loving father who saw to it that we still have a roof over our heads and gave us the strength to keep going day after day.

 

I apologized to God because I realized that our relationship with God is not a human relationship. Human relationships break down when we often don’t feel like we get what we need from them. We think, “If he or she loved me they would have done this or that for me.” But our relationship with God is a covenant. He never stops loving us, even when we do get mad at Him. It’s a love that is meant to be everlasting because He chose us. He knew who would be His from the beginning of time. That is a love that is supernatural. It’s a love that lasts through eternity. He is always on our side, and He promises to make something good out of our lives and restore the years the locusts have eaten away.

 

Any human relationship can and will end. Either through natural death or God only knows what. God’s love will never fail us.

 

Satan was laughing and dancing gleefully the day I threw myself on the floor and confronted God. I know that now and it breaks my heart. I was wrong. I realize now, more then ever, when you are working for God you are a prime target. The sooner Satan can make you mad enough to turn against God, the better for Him it is. The less people you can minister too the better it is for Satan. This is war. We have to put on armor and understand the enemy.

 

So get mad at God if you must, but don’t stay mad. Moses questioned God, Abraham questioned God and many others have too.

 

It’s okay to get mad, but it’s time to ask forgiveness of Him and restore your relationship. He’s waiting for you in the Garden! Meet Him there and make up with Him!

Are So-Called Friends Becoming A Burden?

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“One who has unreliable friends soon comes to ruin, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother.” Proverbs 18:24

 

Do you have a lot of friends?  Are they real friends, friends that will quit what they are doing and come running when you are in need?

 

It’s wonderful to have friends that are loyal to you, but how about you? Is it all about you or do you take time to ask someone “How are you doing?” prior to launching into a conversation regarding all your troubles?

 

If you are only concerned with your own problems you will not be able to keep many friends in life. Sooner or later we recognize, “Takers” because they take, take and take from us but are never there for us.

 

I find it interesting that when we finally decide we no longer want these takers in our lives that they act as if they don’t have a clue as to why they lost our friendship. They cannot stand the fact that they no longer have someone around to use as an emotional scapegoat. They then get paranoid,about all the things you know about them, and set out to start turning their friends and family member against you.

 

Isn’t it amazing that people no longer talk to you because of the evilness of other people? I used to let it bother me, but not anymore. At my age, I let it go. I try to ignore them. I go on with my life.

 

These people need to develop a relationship with Jesus. I have found that Jesus never leaves us and never forsakes us. Jesus is there for us and is on “duty” for us 24/7.

 

If you find yourself losing friends take your own inventory. Do you invest as much time into that friend as they invest into you? If not you need to change. If you cannot quit telling your problems to someone then get a counselor. As counselors we break the law by sharing the secrets of those we have counseled with.

 

Once you try to ignore these people they then send their “Flying Monkeys” after you.” I was shocked one day when an ex friends mother attacked me online as I made a comment on someone’s FB page. It was mean, it was cruel and not the truth. She had been listening to my “ex” friend and believed everything that she had heard. I then blocked them both. She was telling someone that I was not a “real” friend. What was sad about that was that I had given the woman’s grandson money when he was in need. I guess she had forgotten about that.

 

Sometimes you get disappointed with a friend. If it’s a one-time thing, talk it out and don’t let it break your friendship. But if it continues to happen then let the person go. We become like those we spend the most time with. Unless you want to become a whiner too, it’s best to let the person go. Pray for them, but let them go. Life is too short to be burdened with someone else’s problems daily. You too have problems and if they continue to dump on you don’t be surprised if you find yourself getting depressed, and angry, for no apparent reason. Like sponges we absorb a lot of other people’s emotions.

 

Find positive, happy people who love God. Find people who will pray for you when you need it. Find people who call you occasionally and ask you, “How are you doing, I was thinking about you!”

 

If you are anxious and stressed today, look around you. It might not be you but someone whom you are spending a lot of time with that is draining you. These people are so low on energy that they literally drain those around them. It’s not always you, but instead those who you surround yourself with.

 

In God’s Unconditional Love,

Cathie

Controllng Your Anger

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When we respond to things we do not like, or things that trigger us, with anger, bitterness and rebellion our lives are out of control. I am not talking about an occasional time of losing our temper, because we all do that. I am talking about a life that includes uncontrollable behavior on a daily basis.

 

First we have to be willing to change, and then we have to ask God to help us. If we could change on our own we would do it. We need the supernatural power of God to help us overcome our triggers.

 

In the gospel of Mark we see the power of Jesus displayed over and over again.

 

Jesus raised the dead, gave sight to the blind, restored deformed limbs, made lame people walk, cast out demons, healed incurable skin diseases, and quieted storms.

 

Jesus is a powerful savior and He is able to do the impossible when we ask Him to do so. Jesus came to help us. We know that because of His painful death on the cross of Calvary, which he endured so that He could free us from our bondages to sin and give us eternal life.

 

The problem we have is that we like to appear to be strong and handle things ourselves. We usually don’t go to Jesus for help until we have exhausted all others means of help.

 

He is much more powerful then any of our dependencies, problems and weaknesses. He has the power to help us with any problem we have that seems impossible. All we have to do is look to Him and say, “HELP!”

 

We ask for His help, in the name of Jesus. The powerful name of Jesus is miraculous. I cannot tell you the times I call on that name when things are seemingly too hard for me to bear. Truthfully, He has never let me down. When I come to Him He wipes my tears and gives me strength to get through any circumstance.

 

Come to Him today, Beloved. Decide not to spend another day responding to things the way you always have responded to things. If your method worked you would be free of anger, bitterness and a bad temper. He is waiting for you to ask for His help!

 

In His Unconditional Love,

Cathie

 

Regarding Suicide

Before I start my story let’s get this out of the way, yes I know life can get hard sometimes and I have compassion for those who feel like quitting. I know that sometimes the pain gets to be too much and that sometimes the person in pain just wants it all to end. Having said that let me show you the other side of suicide.

In my humble opinion suicide is the ultimate Narcissistic act. It’s the person saying my pain is more intense then my love for you, my child, my parents, my siblings or my partner. It’s a lifetime sentence for the people left behind.

Some of you know that God works through me in mystical ways. I don’t like the word mystic but it’s my only way to explain it to folks who don’t understand the gifts of the Holy Spirit, so please bear with me.

One day many years ago, while doing spiritual counseling with a client, I saw first hand the aftermath of suicide. The woman sitting in front of me was a physical therapist at a facility that I too worked at. I knew nothing about her but that.

Immediately, as she sat down, God showed me a very agitated woman standing in back of the physical therapist. I tried to ignore it but the woman kept agitating. Finally I stopped long enough to hear the woman say, over and over, “Tell her I am sorry, tell her I am sorry, tell her I am sorry!”

I said to the PT, “ I am sorry but before we go any farther there is a woman standing in back of you repeating over and over, “Tell her I am sorry.”

The PT’s eyes got big and she started to cry. Huge body wracking sobs were coming out of her. I was taken a back, and stood up to go comfort her by giving her a hug. She just collapsed into that hug like a child whose heart had been broken in a million pieces.

When she finally gathered her composure she told me the following; “You don’t know this but when I was 12 years old my mother shot and killed herself in front of me and my two younger brothers. I have wondered my whole life if she had any idea of the pain she was causing me, and my brothers, in order that she could escape her own pain. You have just given me the closure I never had!”

My entire life I have not forgotten that particular counseling session. The pain that poor woman had inflicted upon her by her own mother was simply overwhelming. It shaped my whole opinion on suicide from that day forth.

Please, if you feel suicidal, consider the pain you are transferring from yourself to your loved ones and get help.

As Christians we are reminded of the scripture, “The Lord giveth life and the Lord taketh life, blessed be the Name of The Lord!” God gave us our lives and only he has a right to take it. There is a time appointed for each of us to die. When we commit suicide we show that we think that we, and we alone, have the right to decide when to die. We play God.

I know it hurts but find someone to counsel with and get help! God has a better plan for your life and Satan wants to disrupt that plan through death. Start praying for God to help you and He will! What you may see as the end of your life is actually a doorway to a new beginning!

In His Unconditional Love,

Cathie

http://www.helpforgodshurtingpeople.com

Catching Fish/For Fishers Of Men

 

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Ministry is a serious covenant between those of us who serve him and God. We cannot take time off from that covenant to “do our own thing.” People are watching. When we go astray, there needs to be a time of repentance and recommitment. We may think no one see’s our secret sins, but trust me when I say God gives discernment to others. They know. We are in no position to teach others when we ourselves are far from perfect. God will restore us. But we need to be honest about our shortcomings. Too many today are telling others to stay free from sin when they are doing it themselves.

Therefore thus says the LORD God of Israel concerning the shepherds who are tending My people: “You have scattered My flock and driven them away, and have not attended to them; behold, I am about to attend to you for the evil of your deeds,” declares the LORD.…

New Living Translation
“Son of man, prophesy against the shepherds, the leaders of Israel. Give them this message from the Sovereign LORD: What sorrow awaits you shepherds who feed yourselves instead of your flocks. Shouldn’t shepherds feed their sheep? Ezekiel 34:2

in His Unconditional Love,

Cathie