Regarding Suicide

Before I start my story let’s get this out of the way, yes I know life can get hard sometimes and I have compassion for those who feel like quitting. I know that sometimes the pain gets to be too much and that sometimes the person in pain just wants it all to end. Having said that let me show you the other side of suicide.

In my humble opinion suicide is the ultimate Narcissistic act. It’s the person saying my pain is more intense then my love for you, my child, my parents, my siblings or my partner. It’s a lifetime sentence for the people left behind.

Some of you know that God works through me in mystical ways. I don’t like the word mystic but it’s my only way to explain it to folks who don’t understand the gifts of the Holy Spirit, so please bear with me.

One day many years ago, while doing spiritual counseling with a client, I saw first hand the aftermath of suicide. The woman sitting in front of me was a physical therapist at a facility that I too worked at. I knew nothing about her but that.

Immediately, as she sat down, God showed me a very agitated woman standing in back of the physical therapist. I tried to ignore it but the woman kept agitating. Finally I stopped long enough to hear the woman say, over and over, “Tell her I am sorry, tell her I am sorry, tell her I am sorry!”

I said to the PT, “ I am sorry but before we go any farther there is a woman standing in back of you repeating over and over, “Tell her I am sorry.”

The PT’s eyes got big and she started to cry. Huge body wracking sobs were coming out of her. I was taken a back, and stood up to go comfort her by giving her a hug. She just collapsed into that hug like a child whose heart had been broken in a million pieces.

When she finally gathered her composure she told me the following; “You don’t know this but when I was 12 years old my mother shot and killed herself in front of me and my two younger brothers. I have wondered my whole life if she had any idea of the pain she was causing me, and my brothers, in order that she could escape her own pain. You have just given me the closure I never had!”

My entire life I have not forgotten that particular counseling session. The pain that poor woman had inflicted upon her by her own mother was simply overwhelming. It shaped my whole opinion on suicide from that day forth.

Please, if you feel suicidal, consider the pain you are transferring from yourself to your loved ones and get help.

As Christians we are reminded of the scripture, “The Lord giveth life and the Lord taketh life, blessed be the Name of The Lord!” God gave us our lives and only he has a right to take it. There is a time appointed for each of us to die. When we commit suicide we show that we think that we, and we alone, have the right to decide when to die. We play God.

I know it hurts but find someone to counsel with and get help! God has a better plan for your life and Satan wants to disrupt that plan through death. Start praying for God to help you and He will! What you may see as the end of your life is actually a doorway to a new beginning!

In His Unconditional Love,

Cathie

http://www.helpforgodshurtingpeople.com

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Jesus Can Set You Free And Keep You Free

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Sometimes we have to let people go for their own good. We cannot carry people,through prayer, forever. At a certain point in our walk with God we have to quit eating baby food and start eating solid food. At a certain point we have to grow enough to step out and use what we have learned to help grow others in Christ. We cannot help others until we get free from things that hold us back. Why? Because people see that as hypocrisy. They then turn away from God and some never come back! I did that for years before I was completely set free from things ruining my testimony. 

If there is no growth it’s because we are sitting around singing the blues, full of self pity,  instead of trusting God to show us how to live joyful in good times and bad. It takes work that no other human being can do for us. 

Remember when Jesus said to the man at the pool of Bethesda, “Get up, take up your mat and walk.” The man had complained to Jesus that he had no one to help him to the pool for healing. Jesus healed him, but then put the responsibility right back on him.

It’s wonderful when Christians pray for us! It builds our faith when God answers their prayers for us.

It takes us making a decision to follow God,no matter how we are feeling, to stay healed. 

God healed me of depression several years ago. But that doesn’t mean depression doesn’t try to come back on me, because it does. I have been taught by God that I cannot give in to depression. You know some of my life, but I am pretty sure you don’t know all. Believe me when I tell you that I have a lot of reasons to stay depressed. The only way to be joyful, is for me to choose joy. If I start to think about my life and feel sorry for myself I can go down into depression really quickly. 

God has taught me that when I feel the first little bit of self pity I simply STOP and put my mind on God. I praise Him for anything I can think of. I read the Word, I read the encouragement others put online, I put on worship music and raise my hands and worship. 

It’s not always easy. But it works. You may not be battling depression you may be battling drugs, alcohol, anger, pornography. Whatever it is, you can get it off your mind and out of your life the same way!

We cannot spend the next five or ten years taking one step forward and two steps back and then expecting our friends to do the work that  we  need to do to stay free!

Someone, right now Jesus is saying “It’s time to get free and never go backwards! As you make an effort to take responsibility and stay free, I will meet you right where you are and keep you free!” 

God loves you! He really does! You have work to do in the Kingdom! Take up your mat and WALK!

In His Unconditional Love,

Cathie Miller