Living Through Unimaginable Sorrow

Turning against God, when something hurtful happens, is for some understandable. We have all had times when we suffered pain and felt as if God let us down. It was during one of those times in my life where I reached a crossroad with God. I knew I could go down a road without Him or I could decide to trust Him and go on down the road with Him. I fell to my knees and told Him, “I don’t know why you have allowed this but nevertheless you are the only one who truly loves me, unconditionally, and whether you never answer another prayer I pray again, I am going on with you!”

I remember this quote from the movie, “The Shack,” when I need to, I take it out of my bible and read it. It puts everything in perspective for me. God spoke the following…

“Just because I work incredible good out of unspeakable tragedies doesn’t mean I orchestrate the tragedies. Don’t ever assume that my using something means I caused it or that I need it to accomplish my purposes. That will only lead you to false notions about me. Grace doesn’t depend on suffering to exist, but where there is suffering you will find grace in many facets and colors.”

― William P. Young, The Shack

In His Unconditional Love,

Cathie

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Guarding Our Hearts

When we spend time with someone regularly we become like them. The intimacy we have with God daily leads us to the same kind of discernment Jesus used when dealing with people. We then have, “The mind of Christ.” Using His discernment we can deal with others the way Jesus did by observing how He dealt with people. Jesus was not afraid to call things out if need be. There is a time to be quiet, beloved, and a time to confront in love.

When I was being taught, by God, how to renew my mind, it was so mind blowing to see the following scripture; John 2:23-24

23 While Jesus was in Jerusalem at the Passover festival, many people believed in him because they saw the miracles that he performed. 24 But Jesus didn’t trust them because he knew human nature. No one needed to tell him what mankind is really like.

So Jesus knew, and we should too, that we have to use discernment when dealing with people because not everyone we come across is who they “appear” to be. Not everyone who told Jesus how wonderful his miracles were really loved Jesus. They loved the miracles but not all loved the miracle maker, God, and Jesus knew that.

In our own lives there are some people who might love what we do for them, but not us. They will use us and then abuse us when they can no longer use us.

I have found that people who have low esteem from years of abuse too easily seek approval of others. Certain users and abusers notice that in us and use it to their advantage. They can show a lot of love and approval but then, in order to get their way, they can refuse to give love and approval. It’s like a drug dealer feeds a junkie drugs and then when they see the person is hooked, they withdraw the drug availability and a junkie will then pay anything to get the drug they crave.

Discerning motives is the part of the mind of Christ, in us, that protects our boundaries.

In His Unconditional Love

Cathie

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Be Careful Of Your Words

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I am not usually a complainer. I have found out the hard way that complaining does no good and it actually is a lack of faith. Even as I write this I know that it will work out and that God has this and that it will be okay.

The thing is I am not perfect. You are not perfect either and as long as we wear these suits of flesh we will be subject to having days when we miss it, we miss the mark.

I was so looking forward to today for the longest time. Why you ask? Today was to be the very last student loan payment I had to make. I have had them automatically taken out of my account and today was to be the last day of a payment that would have been a car payment for most people. Instead we drive a 17 year old car, it looks okay and is in good condition and we are blessed to have it.

I woke up at 2:30 AM and was excited to check my account to make sure that the one last payment was gone and I would have the full amount of my direct deposit. Note to self, do not check you bank account at 2:30 AM when customer service everywhere is closed. So sure enough instead of the amount of my last payment, the department of education took out a whole lot more. I was in shock. I had no idea what was going on. The very next thought I had was, “ Why God? Can’t just one thing go right in my life?”

I slept little as I waited for Customer Service at the Department Of Education to open. I kept telling myself that God has this. I need to sleep and get my rest. But since I couldn’t seem to find a rational reason for what was happening I had a hard time doing that.

Finally I get through and I got a guy who must have been on his first day on the job today. I had him on speaker phone and both my husband and I were in shock. I could not get him to understand what had happened. He said, “Would you like to set up payments?” I said, several times, “I am calling because today was the last day of making payments and you not only took my payment but 3 times my payment.” He just couldn’t understand and I asked for a supervisor. By now my husband and I could not believe that the Dept. of Education, of all places, had people working there who couldn’t understand my problem. I also realized now that it was a Satanic attack. I couldn’t explain it any other way. No one could be that confused.

Finally I get the supervisor who tells me that I have to summit a paper to have the payments stopped and that he can do this for me. I told him that I was told they would be stopped automatically when the loan was paid off and he informed me that I was wrong. He also gave me the bad news that it would be 45 days before I could get the amount over and above my payment removed and refunded. To cheer me up he told me he would send me a letter stating my account to be paid in full. No reason for why this happened but he says it happens often. Great!

I am learning to live one day at a time. Anytime I make plans for the future I often have them not come through and I often have to start over in another direction anyway.

God tells us to live one day at a time like the Israelites who God would only give manna to for one day at a time. God knew that if they had plenty they would not put him first. I would like to think I would never, at this point in time, NOT put God first. But God knows us better then we know ourselves.

I had plans for a real turkey dinner this year with all the trimmings and a Christmas tree because I had to sell mine when everything went to heck in a hand basket financially because of my husbands 3 month hospital stay and all the bills that went with it. Now, it will be slim pickings but I thank Him that at least we have a roof over our head and others do not.

One more thing….We have to be so careful with the words that come out of our mouths. My husband and I pray together daily and each time we say the following, “No weapon formed against us will prosper!” They don’t prosper but they do happen. Today for example, it isn’t prospering but it is going to be hard for the next couple of months.

I said to my husband today, “We need to change our decree. We need to pray that we have no weapons formed against us at all. He agreed.

So I wrote this for a couple of reasons. So many times because I don’t complain people think I live in this wonderful bubble. It’s not true. Most of the time it’s just the opposite. Satan throws darts at me daily. I have learned, as hard as it is, that I must trust in God. Everything will work out. It always does. Today would have been an easy day for me to say, “That’s it, I cannot take anymore, God!” I made the CHOICE to keep on being faithful to Him. He is all I have and nothing bad comes from His hands.

Secondly, we MUST WATCH OUR PRAYERS! We might be using words that are actually cursing our situation and not helping it.

I have learned that what you say is what you get. From now on I will accept no weapon thrown against us! I will watch my words.

You have to be careful and precise with your prayers. For instance don’t just pray for a Christian mate but be specific with God. Write down 5 things your Christian mate needs to have for you to be happy with them. You don’t want just a Christian mate. You want one that prays with you, that knows the Word of God, that puts God first and you second. Then get specific with the physical attributes.

We must be so careful with our words. I do not want weapons formed against us to not prosper, I just don’t want weapons thrown at us from Satan at all.

In His Unconditional Love,
Cathie

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My Deliverance From Depression

God can heal depression. I know because I was miraculously delivered from a lifetime of pain caused by depression. Until God renewed my mind I would have thought I would be depressed forever….this is my story.

People have no trouble believing that someone with a physical ailment was healed. Why then is it so hard to believe that someone with depression can be healed?

I am old enough to remember those in my grandmothers generation just talked about someone who was down as having “the blues.” In my mothers generation the blues were changed into “depression” and came with a medical diagnosis and medication.

The big winner in treatment of depression is the pharmaceutical companies. They make billions off antidepressants. Some of the antidepressants cause anxiety. Now people become anxious and depressed. Some antidepressants also cause sleeping problems. Yet, antidepressants remain one of the most prescribed meds in the United States.

Anyone who has known me longer then 20 years will tell you that I had depression so severely that it was hard for me to get out of bed. I often spent days in bed with the curtains drawn. I was given one antidepressant after the other and they might have given me a little more energy, at first, but they only worked temporarily. Sooner or later I went back to being depressed.

Twelve years ago, with the help of my husband, I started researching depression. We soon began to realize it was almost impossible to find anyone who had been healed by pharmaceuticals. Around that time a drug called, Abilify was introduced. It was widely advertised on television. They said “If your antidepressant is not working you might want to add Abilify.”

Clinical depression: Depressed mood that meets the DSM-IV criteria for a depressive disorder. The term clinical depression is commonly used to describe depression that is a type of mental illness‘not a normal, temporary mood caused by life events or grieving. Notice this medical definition of clinical depression has no mention of chemically depressed;

And this one of Major Depressive Disorder;

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Major_depressive_disorder

I also want you to notice the length of time of the two major diagnoses for depression. Neither of these list “forever.” The pharmaceuticals companies do want anyone healed of depression. They want people on antidepressants forever because they are getting very wealthy from it. They can do this by brainwashing people that they are chemically unbalanced and there is nothing that they can do forever but take pills. We start to tell ourselves and others that until we believe it and it’s mind over matter. Now people are addicted to antidepressants and truly believe they must have them forever. That’s what Big Pharma wants. Don’t ever try getting off your antidepressants cold turkey. If you decide to stop taking them do so under medical supervision only.

I began to seek God through fasting and prayer because I counseled so many people who told me that they were depressed and when I asked if they were taking antidepressants they almost always said, “Yes” When I asked if they felt they were feeling any better they almost all said, “NO.”

I was sitting in front of my computer one afternoon and God spoke to my heart that he was going to heal me from depression and He was going to show me exactly how to help other people heal from depression. I have been completely healed from debilitating depression and my whole life changed. I am not going into it all in this blog post but there is a way to be set free and I have taught it to others who have also been set free from depression.

I have had more then one person tell me that they were paying someone up to “220.00” dollars an hour for therapy that wasn’t helping them. God’s method, as taught to me, will set you free and as the Word say’s, “Whom the Lord sets free is free indeed.”John 8:36.

The only failures I have seen are those who are not true believers in God and do not have a personal relationship with God. These are the scoffers who believe in traditional psychology and are sold out for pharmaceuticals.

When you are sick and tired of being depressed, God most certainly can and WILL deliver you. Depression is oppression that takes hold during a time of trauma or intense pressure. Depression is a common expression of a broken spirit. It is fed by daily dwelling in the valley of despair.

If you are ready to begin your healing process God will meet you right where you are and begin to renew your mind. Chemical imbalance can be healed through changes in diet and adding some vitamins and minerals supplements. That, and the correct tools, used faithfully, will continue your healing from depression.

God changed my life and it was such a miraculous change that my passion is to help others to do the same.

Disclaimer

I am not telling anyone to quit their antidepressants. I am not telling anyone to quit counseling or therapy. How you handle your depression is between you and God!

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My blog is always my opinion and my experience with God given instruction that I am passionate about sharing with others. Nobody is forced to subscribe and no one is forced to stay subscribed.

It’s not about me. It’s about God and the miracle experiences I have had in His presence. I want you to be set free and live successfully in Christ Jesus.

In His Unconditional Love,

Cathie

Be Yourself

God made each of us unique. That uniqueness is made to appeal to other people that we are sent to minister to. Your gift may be art, or music, cooking or teaching wisdom but whatever it is use it for spreading God’s love.

Not everyone will like us and those people aren’t our people.

Be yourself and those who get you will stay and those who don’t will leave and that’s okay.

The greatest way to relax in God’s peace is to realize you were created for God’s purposes and not your own. Then and only then does life start to make sense.

In His Unconditional Love

Cathie

Dealing With Troublemakers

“ A dishonest man spreads strife.”

We all know them. They are troublemakers. Troublemakers are people who are so miserable in their own life that the only thing that makes them happy is starting trouble between other people, stirring the pot, and then sitting back and gleefully watching the outcome of the trouble they created.

It has taken me awhile but I have recently discovered a major troublemaker in my circle of friends and family. I had noticed that every single person that this person and I know in common suddenly stops talking to me. When, to the best of my knowledge, I had done nothing to any of these people to upset them I prayed about it and God revealed to me the source of the trouble was one person. One person who I have had discernment about for sometime. One person who was at one time close to God but through sexual addictions has opened a door to every demonic spirit one can imagine. Several years ago the person had pictures online of them in church. Then, apparently, they got involved with a bad person or two and you can see that Satan has entered their life now and as they say, “in spades.”

Because most Christians are sensitive people, when we don’t have on the armor of God, when we don’t have the gift of discernment in knowing how to best deal with these troublemakers, they can easily get under our skin, disrupting our home and lives, pulling us into their lion’s den.

All it takes is one Satan filled demon from hell to turn your whole office, family and or friends against you.

At first, when you are the target, you think as a Christian that you can simply pray for them and be kind to them and they will change their ways. I considered that, and frankly I have been praying for the person for years. I prayed for them long before their jealousy of my life led them to try and destroy my ministry and my life.

Upon studying the Bible, regarding the way Jesus handled trouble makers, I came to the knowledge that Jesus used diverse ways in handling troublemakers. Some times he confronted them with anger and outrage while telling followers to pray for these people.

You can try ignoring them but most of them, I have found, become further upset and then do anything they can to get your attention.

I honestly believe the best way to handle them is to go to the people who no longer speak to you and tell them what you suspect the person, the troublemaker, of doing. Their favorite tactic is to tell someone you said something about them. Something hurtful. You can then try and set the record straight. Unfortunately these troublemakers are very skilled at what they do and sometimes the offended friend will NOT believe you.

To my friends in ministry, of any type, I want to warn you of something some of you already know and that is the fact that ministry can be very lonely. We have very few friends because of the anointing Christ has on our lives. Other Christians, out of jealousy, look for something to accuse you of. If you, being human, have a hard day and share that with a friend, the next thing you know it’s used against you. Be very careful of who you share with!

Troublemakers need to be exposed. I have found, as I fast and pray about the situation, God reveals to me how to deal with the problem. He also starts to out the troublemakers to others who then begin to see the truth.

You want to give a troublemaker as little ammunition against you as possible so, after praying, God may tell you to unfollow them on FB, and cut them out of your life. If you have to work with them plead the blood of Jesus over yourself anytime you come into contact with them. Ask God to turn the arrows they are attacking you with right back onto them. God once, during prayer, gave me a vision of a shield of armor surrounding me, as a circular fence. Every time the troublemaker shot malicious arrows my way they bounced off the shield of armor and went back onto the troublemaker.

Do not, and I know it’s so hard, get anxious about a troublemaker. Remember, and quote often, the following scripture;

“Greater is He who is within ME then he who is in the world.” 1 John 4:4.

Lastly, the Word tells us to ignore troublemakers. Set things straight with others, if you can, and then simply try to not think of it all the time. Stop anxiety thoughts and place your mind elsewhere. Then give it to God and try to forgive them, through Christ, who has forgiven you and me of so very much!

Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. – James 4:7

In His Unconditional Love,

Cathie

Defeating Self Pity Thoughts

Today has been so hard for me physically. Yesterday was hard for me too. For the first time ever I wondered if it was time for me to give up my fight with IBD and specifically ulcerative colitis. The constant symptoms are wearing me down. I try not to get down and feel sorry for myself but today has been a constant struggle. I have a husband who is 75% blind and depends on me for almost everything. I would love to stay in bed sometimes because I am weak. However, I have to take care of the both of us. So, on I go. It really is true that you never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have. Right?

These are the thoughts that wander through my head and if I dwelt on those thoughts too long I would be done for, and so I force my mind away from self pity thoughts.

I decided to write this today to encourage the rest of you. We all have our own problems and God spoke to my heart that their are many others today feeling that they too are reaching the end of their ropes. Some people get down on God at time likes these and they think God must not be there is he allows their suffering to continue.

Beloved, nothing could be further from the truth. It is not God who causes suffering. We are prime targets for the evil one. Those who belong to God often suffer in this world. God sees it and is working behind the scenes to bring someone to help, encourage and lift us up. This is not the time to give up because we are so close to our goal! We fight on and refuse to give Satan what he wants. He see’s what we do for God and thats why he works so hard to discourage us.

I have been sent to you right now to tell you that God is on the scene of your bad situation and he is working to bring you a miracle! Now is not the time to give up! I know you want to and I know in the natural it looks like an impossible situation that you are in. God has dispatched angels for your specific situation and you are getting ready to see the Red Sea of your situation open in front of your eyes, and the eyes of those who have mocked you for trusting God. As hard as it is you much quit the negative thoughts and words and let FAITH arise in your situation again.

I am praising God right now for divine healing and miracle restoration of relationships. I praise him, in spite of what it looks like in the natural, for financial provision pouring down in a stream of glory for those whose financial situations are desperate.

We must not give up because miracles are being released NOW from the throne room of GOD.

In His Unconditional Love,

Cathie

Satan Wants To Destroy You

Satan is not stupid. He has been studying you since the day you were born because his goal, his only goal, is to take as many people to hell with him as possible.

He will bring something or someone that looks like everything you have ever wanted to destroy you.

You will be so thrilled with the person you will forget they aren’t a bible believing Christian. You will be so thrilled with the car you won’t see that you will have to work two jobs to keep it. You will be so in love with the beautiful house on the hill that you will forget the fact that you wanted a starter home to build up equity and not have to rent anymore.

So many times well meaning Christians are in bad situations because of Satan putting something in front of them they really didn’t need in order to destroy them and their peace.

If you are there today pray in contrite sorrow and ask God to forgive you for putting things and people before Him. When we sincerely repent God comes on the scene and delivers us. Learn from the lessons, beloved of the Lord, and vow to God you will not repeat them. Put him in the center of all your decisions and you will do the right thing!

John 10:10 New International Version The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.

In His Unconditional Love,

Cathie

Self-Pity is Ugly

Sometimes there is a pay-off for constant self-pity, playing the victim, etc. The pay-off is attention. Another pay-off is using these things as an excuse for not achieving goals.

At first the attention is given by people who feel sorry for the person…..but ten plus years down the road people start to avoid people who play the victim.

It’s not that some don’t have reasons for their victim mentality. Years of devastation, betrayal, rejection and loss have occurred.

God wants to heal the years the locust have eaten away. Like my favorite song says, “He’s a way-maker, miracle worker, promise keeper, light in the darkness..”

Only His supernatural healing power will restore you!

Joel 2:24-26

…24The threshing floors will be full of grain, and the vats will overflow with new wine and oil. 25I will repay you for the years that the swarming locusts have eaten— the young locust, the destroying locust, and the devouring locust My great army that I sent against you. 26You will have plenty to eat, until you are satisfied. You will praise the name of the LORD your God, who has worked wonders for you. My people will never again be put to shame.…

In His Unconditional Love,

Cathie Miller

To His Precious Hurting Child

John 10:10 (GNT) The thief comes only in order to steal, kill, and destroy. I have come in order that you might have life – life in all its fullness.

Never forget that the devil is a foe who constantly seeks to destroy us. Why? Because he knows his eventual end is Hell. He wants company there. He hates God and wants to steal His children.

Today while praying I sensed in the spirit there are many being hurt needlessly by someone on a regular basis. You think if you ignore them and love them unconditionally they will feel bad and change. In the meantime each day you feel a little bit worse about yourself.

Please remember that not everyone who calls themselves a Christian really is. Just like you don’t become a car by sitting in a garage, you don’t become a Christian by sitting in a church.

In an effort to destroy you the devil is using this person and the hurtful words that come out of their mouth. Pray for God’s salvation for this person because without a total commitment to God they won’t change.

Get out now and remove yourself from Satan’s territory.

In His Unconditional Love,

Cathie Miller

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